Is God so repulsive? Why is he repulsive now but so many used to search high and low for him? What are we doing wrong?  You know, I remember when I was 18, I was riding on a train with a friend. I was at a point where I was very frustrated with God and not sure I wanted to be a Christian. As we sat there, and empty pop bottle rolled under my feet. There was a sense of obligation that BECAUSE I was a Christian, I should pick it up and throw it out. In an outburst, I said to my friend, "This is stupid! I feel guilty for not picking it up because I feel like I should because I'm a Christian! But I don't want to do it out of guilt. That shouldn't be why I do it! I should do it because I LOVE God and that is how you love him! You take care of his world!"  I've often struggled with feeling like the life of a Christian is a life of obligation, not a life of love. But maybe love goes out the window when I take Him for granted so much. In these verses today, it almost goes right over my head that He healed this woman. I've read about His healings so much, that it is just typical. But it blew this woman away and once she was healed and able, she got up and served him...not because He told her too, but because she was so so so thankful. She loved him for what He did.   I think I take so much of my life for granted. So much of the goodness, because shouldn't life be that way anyway? Mostly good? That's a guarantee? But we forget that all of that goodness is always always always a gift. And maybe if we saw it that way, love would drive more of our actions, rather than seeing it as a list of obligations. What do you think?